We are extraordinary. Humans, I mean. We have been fashioned by The Extraordinary. We have been built to experience the very essence of all that is real. Have you ever had certain moments of your life that you felt were being carved in your flesh–it was that memorable? Perhaps it was nothing “grand” in the way the world defines it. Maybe it was that puzzling moment in the kitchen when you were eight, when your mother started to cry because she burnt dinner. Maybe it was that day after school in senior year when you dropped your book in the gutter on your way home. Maybe it was the moment you looked in the mirror after your first child was born and saw a rainbow in the light of the shower window. Confused? I’ll muse some more.
There are two spheres of thought which I believe a fully living soul partakes of simultaneously.
The first is this:
This universe is overwhelmingly large, and we, however loud our circumstances may be…
are just.
one.
person.
The other sphere is this: the sphere of miracles. It is essential to be aware of the magic that is before us in every moment if we want to drink life, instead of just stare at its delicious luster on the table. The cracked pavement, the hum of traffic, the smooth rim of my coffee mug, the dancing flame by your bed last night, the sparkle of the sun as it peaks through the morning window–the smell of books. All of these can be the most glorious thing you or I have ever seen.
When we drink of both cups–drowning in awe of the great universe, while also tasting the vivid sweetness of each moment in equal awe–life places her seal upon our hearts.
I spent a weekend in the beautiful city of Chiang Mai, Thailand–a city pregnant with beautiful treasures.
The city itself offers a plethora of sensational experiences. Streets bustle, teeming with people and vehicles like a moving puzzle full of exhaust and noise. Ancient trees paint a rusty green into the heavy urban landscape, crowding around the brown river for a drink as its waters slug along. Hundreds of lanterns set the city to glowing at night–lacing riverboats and transforming the archaic buildings into something inviting and warm. The stunning night markets seem to take all the brilliance of a harvest sunset, and scatter it among all the hand-made silks, the painted umbrellas, the rouge of the flawless Thai women, the perfect fruits, and Asian trinkets. Chiang Mai. Where the blind sit together and play music. Where there alleys are full of prostitutes and gutters of stink. Where sex tourists sit in the thick haze of smokey pubs and dimmed lights–with mixed drinks and mediocre covers of songs meant for romance. Chiang Mai. A place where the morning couldn’t be any sweeter.
The taste of morning sun is something I will forever let linger in my mouth as long as it is alive. It’s a miracle.
It was Monday morning, my last day in Chiang Mai. I woke early to bid a heartfelt, but sleepy-eyed farewell to my dear friend, Jia Ling Yong. We spent a treasured weekend together, exploring, discovering, marveling. Her perception of the world teaches me things. She lives in an incredible perception of the world. Everything tiny thing is sacred in her eyes. And yet–everything is cosmic and huge. Her eclectic taste and somewhat esoteric personality has always left me hoping to meet her again. We shall. She is a gift. After we parted ways, I packed up my clothes, checked out of our lovely hostel, and stepped outside to take in the morning air. The sun was shining. My skin delighted in it. There is nothing about the morning that doesn’t promise something new. I love it.
After my belly had found a place to grow full and happy, I tossed my scarf loosely around my neck, and wiped the sweat off my face. Time to explore. I discovered an alley devoted to selling a brilliant selection of used books. Oh the joy. I came out two hours later gingerly, wearing my cumbersome but effective headphones, my red backpack, and a big grin–all while pressing my new pages of Steinbeck, Shakespeare, and an old Bible to my chest. I love the smell of Books.
As I strolled along, the sun warm and the music taking me somewhere else–something occurred to me. It was the fourth of July. Here–no one cared. No one noticed.
Of course, it’s not America, you know. I thought. That’s obvious, but what struck me about this thought, was the potent sense of “small” that came like a wave over my bones. I was reminded of the earth. That it is round. That it bears many tongues, tribes, and nations. I just happened to be born in one, and visiting another–completely ignorant of hundreds and hundreds of cultures and ways of life that I will never see. In a way, it’s freeing to feel small. Life isn’t so bent upon one day, one place, one circumstance. One thing. Life expands when we embrace this feeling of “small”. The first sphere.
God is big. Life is big. Truth–is big.
In this same moment, I looked down and saw my dusty sandals and a tiny shrub finding it’s way to the sun from a crack in the gray pavement.
A miracle.
I smelled my books. Another miracle. The complexity of a single shrub, finding it’s way to the morning sun blew my mind. A seed fell where this drop of green began. The seed somehow managed to find enough water and sunshine to present itself to the world. The cellular structure of each leaf would take a 30 page essay to even begin to describe. And then, there was my books. Their smell. The smell of old, yellow-paged, flaking books. Do you know what smell I’m talking about? I marveled that I carried to my chest a copy of “Love’s Labor’s Lost” that had been read and handled and owned and forgotten and found for over forty years. And here I am, walking along in a city in Asia, proud to be sharer of the book.
The shock of beauty in that moment got me to thinking: to thinking about God. If this shrub, and the smell of these books, is indeed such a miracle…and if the universe is indeed equally incredible and unfathomable..how does God, the Maker of it ALL, see it? A shrub–is it as glorious as a mountain? A ripped up book pressed against the beating heart of a girl–is that as precious as a newborn? On a different plane, take doing the dishes–how does God see that? Is it glorious? How about going to Harvard or building an empire of business–is it more holy than doing the dishes? In my perception of God through a shrub and my books on that dusty street in Chiang Mai–I started to believe in the sacred act of every moment. Nothing is insignificant. Each moment has the potential for holiness. Better yet, each moment IS holy, and we have yet to partake of it, to dig it up, to discover it. It’s called Abiding. Abiding in a Vine.
This is how my mind processes life.
Aren’t you glad that you are not my brain?
So. This moment? It was etched into my heart, as a lover etches his beloved’s name into a tree.
Just as the moment in the kitchen might have taught you about the profound depth of a mother’s love, or as your book falling in the gutter might have taught you about the possibility of living life without a box to fit into, or as the rainbow in the bathroom window taught you that Agape love is real: a seemingly insignificant moment on that sunny morning was of utmost significance to me. I smelled some books, and saw a shrub. It taught me about living in the Glory of God. About the Celebration of Mystery. About the Holiness of every moment.
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